Primitive Camping & Bushcraft

That time I forgot my light

Episode Summary

A quiet evening hunt turns into a full blown adrenaline dump when Chris realizes he forgot his flashlight and something massive is growling in the dark. What starts as a gear lesson about always carrying light turns into a deeper reminder that real confidence in the dark comes from the Light you carry inside

Episode Notes

In this episode we are sitting under the tarp at Camp What The Heck with the fire working in the background and talking about something small that becomes a big deal fast in the woods your light
Chris tells the story of a bow hunt in the Mississippi Delta where it got dark fast the mosquitoes were thick the woods went dead quiet and something in the water let out a roar so deep it made every hair stand up
For a minute it felt like hog trouble or worse and he had no sidearm and no flashlight just a bow and a bad decision
You will hear what that sound really was why the dark in the woods can flip peaceful to unsettling in seconds and how sound travels in flooded timber and canals
Then we go into the real point what light does for you mentally out there
Practical talk from the book Primitive Camping and Bushcraft on the gear you should actually carry not just what looks cool online
Why a cheap Energizer headlamp can save you more than a high dollar toy light
Why you should always keep more than one light source on you pocket pack and vehicle and check batteries before every trip
How fast you lose confidence when you cannot see your next step
We also talk about that moment every hunter and camper knows when the sun is gone and now suddenly you feel watched and you feel very small
From there we shift into John 8 verse 12 where Jesus says I am the light of the world and what that means when you are in real darkness with real fear and you cannot see what is in front of you
It is not just outdoor prep It is heart prep
You are going to get
The alligator story from the Delta
The coyote walkout with nothing but a cell phone light
The gear tip that most beginners ignore and regret
The simple checklist to keep you from getting caught blind in the woods
A reminder that physical light and spiritual light both matter when things go dark
Plus a quick update on primitive-camping.com the new store, blog, freeze dried meals, and plans for recording future episodes live from camp and even from the upcoming street fair

If this episode helps you slow down sharpen up or just breathe a little deeper share it with somebody who needs it

Episode Transcription

(upbeat music)

 

Welcome to the Primitive

 

Camping and Bushcraft Podcast.

 

I'm your host, Chris Speir.

 

So here we're gonna talk about gear,

 

red and the kind of stories

 

you only get around a fire.

 

It's all about learning, adapting

 

and keeping your faith strong.

 

So whether you're a seasoned outdoorsman

 

or just looking to unplug and reconnect,

 

you're in the right place.

 

So pull up a chair by the

 

fire and let's get into it.

 

(upbeat music)

 

All right, welcome back

 

to the Primitive Camping

 

and Bushcraft Podcast.

 

Today I'm down

 

underneath the tarp of Camp Wut-Da-Heck

 

I got the fire rolling in

 

the background behind you guys.

 

So you may see some smoke

 

if you're watching the video.

 

You may hear some

 

crackles if you are listening.

 

So today I want to talk

 

about something small.

 

(chuckles)

 

Something small that always

 

seems to turn into a big deal.

 

The flashlight.

 

Yeah, I mean, man, let me

 

tell you something small

 

as a flashlight always

 

turns into a big deal for me.

 

I've got countless,

 

countless stories of me

 

being out in the great outdoors

 

and I didn't bring a flashlight.

 

I didn't bring a solar lantern.

 

I didn't bring some kind

 

of way to generate light

 

so I could see in the

 

evening other than my campfire.

 

And man, let me tell you, I

 

put myself in some pickles.

 

I have really, really

 

been in a few situations

 

to where I really wished I had a

 

flashlight right now.

 

And on the opposite

 

spectrum, I've had flashlights,

 

but they were the low

 

quality little dollar store ones

 

that are not bright at all.

 

They were just enough to light my path,

 

where I could see where I was walking,

 

but not enough to see down range.

 

I've had situations

 

where I've been climbing

 

into a deer stand and I look

 

up and I could see eyeballs,

 

but I couldn't tell what it was.

 

The eyeballs were glowing in the dark.

 

There was no light around anything else.

 

And then all of a sudden the eyeballs

 

start running towards me.

 

Dude, have you ain't

 

ever been in that situation

 

and you're hunting with a bow and you

 

forgot your sidearm,

 

which that's another

 

item I forget all the time.

 

Dude, it'll send you

 

for a loop, you know?

 

But anyway, I always

 

forget my flashlight.

 

This story goes back to one

 

of the most unsettling events

 

I have ever spent in the woods.

 

And it reminded me why

 

light, both the kind you carry

 

and the kind you live by,

 

matters more than anything

 

when you're in the darkness

 

or when the darkness closes in.

 

So grab your chair and let's get to it.

 

So I'll take you on a little story.

 

And I have everything written down,

 

but I'm trying to relive it in my mind

 

to give you a feel for

 

how this really happened.

 

It was early bow season and I

 

was in the Mississippi Delta.

 

Now it's still warm.

 

And if you ever hunted the Delta,

 

you know that it's just like, it is hot.

 

It's hot, it's humid.

 

It's almost, I don't

 

know, it's almost summertime

 

in October here in South Mississippi.

 

So the mosquitoes home,

 

they're gonna buzzers.

 

They sound like small engines everywhere,

 

like little weed eaters flying around.

 

And when the wind dies

 

down, you can hear every leaf,

 

every frog, every

 

small ripple in the water.

 

You can hear everything.

 

And then the woods kind of amplifies it.

 

So I was up in this

 

tree doing an evening hunt

 

and it was bow season.

 

And that's all I had was a

 

bow and three or four arrows.

 

And I was in this little bottom.

 

It was a hardwood bottom

 

that they flood every year

 

for the ducks.

 

The sun was starting to set,

 

it was coming down through

 

all the little oak trees.

 

And I know you know

 

what I'm talking about,

 

hunting, fishing,

 

camping, you know this stillness.

 

There was a stillness

 

coming about the woods.

 

You know what I'm talking about.

 

It's hard.

 

If you have not been

 

in the great outdoors

 

and know what I'm talking about,

 

you need to experience

 

it because it is awesome

 

because just before dark,

 

that 30 minute, 45 minute period,

 

just before you can no longer see,

 

there is a stillness that always comes

 

and it comes right before the dark.

 

And it is so peaceful

 

until it's unsettling.

 

So everything was perfect.

 

Everything was quiet.

 

And I was just wondering those evenings

 

where it feels like,

 

hey, there's fixing to

 

be a big old 30 point boat

 

walk out of these woods.

 

And it never did.

 

I never even saw anything.

 

Didn't hear anything.

 

Only thing I hear is

 

acorns hitting the ground,

 

but it got dark.

 

And just as, you know,

 

it was one of those where

 

inside the woods is dark

 

where you can't really see.

 

And outside of the woods,

 

you can still see a little bit

 

and you can still

 

walk or make it your way

 

to wherever you're going.

 

So I was up in this tree.

 

It was getting, I was

 

getting ready to come down

 

and then I heard it.

 

At first, I thought this was

 

just a hog and a very big one.

 

And I was like, man, if you know hogs,

 

you know they can mean trouble.

 

They grunt, they huff.

 

And if they got little ones with them,

 

if you get out, you're walking and you

 

get out in the woods

 

and they got little

 

ones, they will charge you.

 

They will try to intimidate you.

 

They're, you know, some of them,

 

the bigger ones will attack you.

 

And then several of

 

them get in together on it.

 

And, you know, they have no hesitation.

 

They don't know no

 

fear until they get afraid

 

and they run off.

 

So I reach over for my flashlight.

 

(chuckles) And there it was, gone.

 

I didn't have it.

 

Somebody's just shooting

 

some guns over here right now.

 

So that sinking feeling kind

 

of hit me right in the gut.

 

And, you know, I thought I packed it.

 

I remember having it,

 

I had it in my hand.

 

Maybe I just left it in my truck.

 

There ain't no telling.

 

So once I realized that,

 

hey, this thing is gone,

 

I was like, man, I got to

 

walk out of here with no light

 

and I got hogs around.

 

And your cell phone light

 

ain't really gonna help either.

 

It'll give you some light

 

so you can see your path.

 

I've done that before.

 

But this particular time,

 

I hear this grunting sound

 

and I start to climb out of the tree.

 

And I hear

 

(roaring)

 

for a little bit longer than that.

 

(chuckles)

 

And I'm like, buddy, I

 

ain't never heard that before.

 

Go, go.

 

I ain't never heard that before.

 

And I'm like, what was that?

 

And it was one of those sounds.

 

It echoed through all these woods.

 

It was very low, but very loud.

 

And it echoed through the

 

woods that it reverberated.

 

And I'm telling you right now,

 

every hair on the

 

back of my neck stood up.

 

Every hair on my body stood up.

 

Like, that was ridiculous.

 

So I was like, man, what is going on?

 

What is that?

 

And I go and I start climbing down again.

 

Somebody's shooting some

 

target practice around here.

 

So I start climbing down

 

again and it does it again.

 

This time it was so loud.

 

I don't know if it

 

was because I was lower

 

and I could hear it.

 

And it seemed like it

 

lasted for 30 seconds.

 

I mean, forever.

 

I was like, yep.

 

I don't even have

 

flashlight and I found Bigfoot.

 

I found Bigfoot.

 

I'm telling you, I

 

found Bigfoot this time,

 

in the woods.

 

And it did it for like 30 seconds.

 

And my hair stood up again

 

and it was lump in the back

 

of the throat when I swallowed

 

and I've never experienced

 

anything like this in the woods.

 

I've seen a lot of things.

 

I've heard a lot of things.

 

I've been around a lot of weird

 

experiences in the woods

 

that cannot be explained.

 

But this one was the

 

weirdest I've ever heard.

 

I've heard everything

 

from bears to large game,

 

large animals.

 

And I have not ever

 

attributed anything to this sound.

 

I couldn't place it.

 

It was not, it wasn't placing.

 

So I stopped cold on my

 

way down on this tree.

 

And I'm like, man, I am

 

fixing to have to shoot an arrow

 

into a hole and do it

 

blindly because I can't see

 

because it is getting way too dark.

 

And then towards the end

 

of that last howl or growl

 

or whatever it is you want to call it,

 

I realized exactly what it was.

 

It had a more of a electric

 

sound to it towards the end.

 

I could hear it break up

 

into a vibrating type rumble

 

and I could hear water dancing.

 

And that's when I

 

realized it wasn't a Bigfoot.

 

It wasn't a hog.

 

It was a male alligator.

 

So any of the guys,

 

anybody that's been hunting out

 

by the swamps and stuff

 

like that in early October

 

will be able to say,

 

well possibly be able to say

 

they hear it, you know.

 

But this dude right here was in a canal.

 

I was about 150 yards from a canal.

 

And I was hunting into this drainage area

 

and they had a covert.

 

And that covert was right above the water

 

and it allowed the water

 

from the canal to come up

 

and fill this area in so

 

that the ducks could come in

 

in early spring and they

 

will have a mating place.

 

And so this alligator had clogged up

 

right next to this covert.

 

And when he come out of the

 

water to do his little dance,

 

his little snout and everything come up

 

and he bends his back or

 

whatever it is that they do

 

and he makes his

 

growl and then he vibrates

 

and you can hear the water

 

dancing on top of his back

 

in between all of his little spines

 

and his leather armor on his back.

 

And you could hear that vibration.

 

And buddy, let me tell

 

you, I was so pleased

 

to find out that it was an alligator.

 

(laughing)

 

It's amazing to see what

 

this alligator does in daylight.

 

But I'm telling you right now,

 

it is terrifying to just

 

hear what this alligator does

 

at night when you can't see.

 

So that was one of the top like,

 

gah, leave moments.

 

And I got so many of them, you know?

 

But that night with

 

no flashlight, no clue

 

where it was coming from,

 

it scared the fire out of me.

 

Literally, I literally got scared.

 

I did not know what it was at first.

 

I mean, you gotta

 

understand that this covert

 

amplified the sound and then being

 

sitting in this bottom

 

the way it was, it was just a little bit in this bottom the way it

 

was, where it was designed

 

for ducks is like a pond, a dry pond.

 

Everything echoed so much

 

that I was just like, wow.

 

So I sat at the bottom

 

of the tree for a while

 

trying to calm down.

 

The woods were completely dark

 

and the only light left

 

was a little faint glow

 

off of the water.

 

The evening sun was in

 

the direction on the west.

 

It was going, you know,

 

where it just kind of gives

 

that little glow and just

 

right as the moon starts

 

coming out and that's when it hit me.

 

Darkness changes everything.

 

So I'm going to switch

 

gears a little bit right here

 

and we're gonna switch over to page 70

 

in the book, "Preview

 

of Camping in Bushcraft."

 

And you know, this is going to show you

 

the miscellaneous category of the gear.

 

And this category is

 

for all the other stuff

 

you may want on hand

 

while camping at a minimum,

 

a good flashlight is

 

one fairly essential item.

 

You can camp without one,

 

which I've done unintentionally.

 

That's what we're talking about here.

 

So this is straight out of the book now,

 

but life is much

 

simpler if you bring it along.

 

I personally get a lot of

 

use out of a cheap headlamp

 

made by Energizer, the

 

little three AAA battery ones.

 

Those are the absolute

 

most bang for the buck.

 

It only draws, the only

 

drawback is that it uses batteries.

 

Three AAA batteries don't weigh much,

 

but I can't tell you how many times

 

I forgot to pack

 

replacements and my batteries had died.

 

So I've gone without a light source,

 

part weight through my trip.

 

And for that reason, a

 

small rechargeable LED

 

handheld flashlight is

 

an excellent addition

 

to any camping kit as it allows you to

 

see greater distances

 

with then a headlamp

 

and can be fully charged

 

before you head out.

 

So that is the book.

 

That is my little

 

exhortation of the book for the day.

 

And I've learned that

 

when you cannot see,

 

your confidence kind of disappears.

 

The same, same woods

 

that felt like peaceful

 

a few moments ago,

 

like, oh, this is beautiful.

 

This is awesome.

 

Suddenly feel alive and

 

like it's watching you

 

and everything is watching you.

 

Everything knows you're

 

there before you ever know

 

that they're there.

 

It doesn't matter how

 

experienced you are,

 

when the light goes,

 

every instinct in your body

 

starts whispering that something's wrong.

 

Something's there, something's watching,

 

something's out there.

 

And I don't know why that is.

 

I don't know.

 

I think I'm pretty sure they call that

 

some kind of phenomenon they

 

call it, but it's very true.

 

No matter what,

 

whenever that sun goes down,

 

I don't care who you are.

 

There's always an

 

uneasiness in the back of your mind.

 

I'm still comfortable in the great

 

outdoors at nighttime.

 

It doesn't bother me, not one bit,

 

but there's always that little something

 

in the back of your mind that can lead

 

to some kind of uneasiness.

 

And the truth is, it wasn't

 

about a flashlight anymore.

 

It was about what it represented,

 

being unprepared, being caught off guard,

 

thinking that you've got

 

control when you really don't.

 

So think about that one for a second.

 

All a flashlight does is give you control

 

so that you can see.

 

I didn't have a light,

 

so I did what I always do.

 

I improvised, you know, I

 

whipped out the cell phone

 

when I used the light on my cell phone.

 

And speaking of light on the cell phone,

 

we'll take a little

 

detour to another story here.

 

And I was hunting again, and

 

it seems to be all the time

 

that I leave my

 

flashlights when I'm hunting.

 

But I get, I don't know,

 

I'm maybe a mile, I followed

 

this creek up into the woods.

 

It was really a slough,

 

and our tributary off of a lake or canal

 

or something like that, but

 

it goes way back up in there.

 

It was about a mile.

 

And I get all the way up in there,

 

and I'm hunting, and I

 

jumped the deer walking in,

 

and I'm like, well,

 

there's a chance that, you know,

 

it's still early bow season.

 

So we'll see if anything comes out,

 

there's still a chance.

 

It got dark, and I

 

started walking back towards

 

where my truck was parked.

 

And so I'm walking

 

the edge of this creek,

 

this whatever tributary,

 

whatever you want to call it.

 

And I get halfway down, and I stopped

 

because it was the most

 

beautiful scene I've seen in years.

 

Where the sun was going

 

down, and the sky was orange,

 

and the sky was blue.

 

You've seen what I'm talking about.

 

And the water reflected

 

everything where the sky was.

 

And the water was

 

reflecting blue and orange,

 

and the moon was coming up.

 

It was a full moon or the

 

day after the full moon,

 

but the moon was

 

coming up and reflecting.

 

Dude, let me tell you, I've

 

never seen a scene like this

 

that I took a picture of it, and man,

 

I hope I got it for this.

 

I'll put it in the cover.

 

I'll make the cover of it.

 

But this, it was beautiful.

 

You had the sun going down on one side,

 

you had the moon

 

coming up on the other end,

 

the opposite is.

 

Opposite is.

 

And you could see the

 

moon reflection in the blue,

 

and then the orange, and it was just like

 

the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

 

And then I started hearing some coyotes,

 

and there was a pretty good bit of them.

 

And I've done some reading

 

here recently to find out

 

that two coyotes can make you think

 

that there's like 20 of them.

 

And it could be just a mating pair,

 

and it's just a pair

 

of coyotes, two of them.

 

And they can make you

 

think that there's like 20

 

actual dogs running around in the woods.

 

So they were very close,

 

they were extremely close,

 

and to the point that

 

I can hear footsteps

 

just off in front of me.

 

Well, all I had was my bow, once again,

 

didn't even have my

 

sidearm with me this time.

 

And I was like, man,

 

all I have or a flashlight

 

was my cell phone again.

 

(laughs) So I ended up doing the long walk,

 

but I stopped and I recorded the sound

 

of the coyotes howling

 

while I was taking pictures

 

of this beautiful scenery.

 

Now, I mean, it was gorgeous,

 

but that was neither here

 

nor there, but it was awesome.

 

I finally got back to the truck and

 

started driving off.

 

And I realized that how

 

beautiful that really, really was.

 

It was crazy.

 

So that night, the

 

Delta taught me something

 

that you can have every

 

tool at your disposal.

 

You can have every piece of

 

gear that you ever wanted.

 

And every ounce of

 

experience in the world,

 

but when you lose your light,

 

well, you can't see what's next.

 

That's when the real test begins.

 

That's when real

 

knowledge of the outdoors is.

 

It's easy to trust your instincts,

 

even when everything's visible, you know?

 

But it's hard when

 

you're standing in the dark,

 

listening to

 

something that you can't see,

 

you don't understand,

 

and it's hard for you to describe.

 

Those moments, you

 

don't rise to the occasion

 

you fall back on what you practiced.

 

And it's kind of hard to

 

mingle this into with a flashlight

 

because all your life you've

 

practiced with a flashlight,

 

but you go outside at night,

 

you have a flashlight.

 

All of your life you've

 

practiced with a light,

 

all of your life you've

 

always taken a light with you.

 

But it's just like,

 

we set our own selves up for failure.

 

If you want to

 

practice being in the woods,

 

go out without a flashlight.

 

That's what's crazy.

 

So I'm out here sitting by the campfire

 

and I'm thinking about that time.

 

I'm thinking about how it shook me,

 

how it really disturbed me,

 

how it really bothered me,

 

because I forgot to bring a flashlight

 

because I was unprepared for what I heard

 

and it rattled my nerves.

 

And then,

 

and then thinking about

 

it, there's something else.

 

The only thing that

 

chases away fear is light.

 

Think about it.

 

The only thing that

 

gets rid of fear is light.

 

Not just physical light,

 

the kind that comes

 

from a flashlight or torch,

 

but your spiritual light.

 

So the kind that comes

 

from knowing who's with you,

 

even when you can't

 

see what's around you.

 

So that's where we're gonna

 

be talking about John 8.12,

 

where Jesus said, and I quote,

 

"Then Jesus spoke to them again saying,

 

"I am the light of the world.

 

"He who follows me

 

shall not walk in darkness,

 

"but have the light of life."

 

So,

 

that little verse hits very hard

 

when you're standing in the woods with

 

your heart pounding,

 

and you don't have a

 

flashlight in your hand.

 

How many of you would

 

actually be thinking

 

about Bible verses at that time?

 

How many of you would actually be saying,

 

"Hey, Lord, if you get me out of this,

 

"I know something's out

 

there, I don't know what it is,

 

"but will you get me out of this?"

 

I mean, let's face it,

 

when it comes down to it,

 

and you let fear take over,

 

you let the unknown take over.

 

In those moments when

 

you've lost your sight,

 

should be when you realize

 

that you've never really lost your light,

 

you just forgot to turn it on.

 

You really just,

 

you're not exposing,

 

you're not allowing

 

the light to take over.

 

And I know this seems like it's like,

 

"Oh, they ain't got

 

no direction with this,

 

"but yes, I do."

 

Because he said, "I am

 

the light of the world."

 

This little light that you have,

 

you always sing that little song,

 

"This little light of

 

mine, I'm gonna let it shine."

 

This little light that you have

 

is nothing compared to him

 

in the light of your life.

 

So there's always

 

practical things that you could do.

 

And practice this all the time.

 

Always pack multiple light sources.

 

When you head out into the woods,

 

as we have an airplane flying overhead,

 

put one in your pocket,

 

and put one in your pack,

 

and then leave one in your

 

vehicle or your conveyance,

 

or whatever, however you got out

 

to where you're going camping.

 

Check the batteries before every trip.

 

Don't assume they are good.

 

Train yourself to move slow.

 

You'll think clearer, and

 

you'll make fewer mistakes

 

as the smoke's coming

 

down and choking me off.

 

Don't just prepare gear,

 

prepare your spirit.

 

That's the big one there.

 

If you only train for what you can see,

 

the dart will always surprise you.

 

Now, I've forgotten my

 

flashlight more than once.

 

I've forgotten it.

 

I can't tell you how many times I've

 

forgotten my flashlight.

 

But every time I do,

 

I think back to that one particular hunt.

 

And this is no joke.

 

I make fun of myself

 

now for being worried

 

about what that noise was.

 

Thinking that I found Bigfoot.

 

The world gets dark sometimes.

 

The woods definitely get dark.

 

But the light, the real light,

 

it never fails us.

 

Jesus is the light of the world.

 

You just gotta remember to carry it.

 

So that's it for today's episode.

 

Thanks for sitting

 

around a fire with me today.

 

As it's slowly starting to burn out,

 

I need to go stoke it and

 

throw some more logs on there.

 

It is definitely cooling off now.

 

Don't forget to swing by the new website,

 

primitivecamping.com.

 

And I'll leave a link in the

 

description of this episode.

 

And it is now at the

 

description of all the episodes,

 

or the footer or whatever page it is.

 

I've learned so much

 

about web design, it's silly.

 

But I still got a long ways to go.

 

But anyway, head on over,

 

primitivecamping.com.

 

Look at the store, read the blog.

 

And what I'm gonna be

 

doing is I'm gonna be turning

 

each one of these

 

podcasts into blog posts.

 

And I have a very long,

 

long backlog of blog posts

 

to start posting.

 

And so it's gonna be a while.

 

I'm prepping up for this weekend.

 

Once the street fair is

 

the end of the first week

 

of November, this coming weekend.

 

Once the street fair is over with,

 

then I will be concentrating on the

 

podcast 100% of the time.

 

And so I'll be pushing

 

this puppy out there.

 

I'll be updating that website.

 

I'll be concentrating my full 100%

 

undivided attention there.

 

We'll be shooting podcast

 

episodes from the woods,

 

from the campsite, from everywhere we go.

 

I'm thinking about

 

even shooting a podcast

 

at the street fair,

 

inviting different individuals

 

to go ahead and drop in.

 

So anyway, thanks for sitting

 

around the fire with me today.

 

And I hope this was helpful.

 

If it was, go ahead and

 

forward it to somebody

 

that would find it even more helpful,

 

that they can find it enjoyable.

 

And I will see you in the

 

next video or the next podcast.

 

Remember, in all your

 

ways, acknowledge him

 

and I'll see you next time.

 

God bless you.

 

(upbeat music)

 

Thanks for sitting

 

around the fire with me today.

 

If this episode gave you

 

something to think about,

 

if it helped you feel a

 

little bit more prepared

 

or it even stirred your faith a tiny bit,

 

go ahead and share it with someone else

 

who might need it as well.

 

We don't go camping

 

to run away from life.

 

We come out here to

 

slow down and to recharge.

 

So grab another log, throw it

 

on the fire and remember this.

 

In all your ways, acknowledge him.

 

And he will direct your path.

 

I'll see you next time.

 

God bless you.